Trying To Reset My Path

In trying to reset my path, I am trying (desperately and begrudgingly at the same time, I might add) to let go of the choices they made and see where I faltered in mine. We all play a part in how our lives are shaped.



I missed signs, cues, and red flags many years ago, right from the beginning. Looking back now, some were glaring neon ones screaming at me to pay attention! Stories were told that made an eyebrow go up; things were spoken that just didn't sit right, and there were some subtle shifts in the wind. Hey you.. this is important... Take notice!! I didn't, or maybe I thought I did, and then I chose to forget as quickly as it was seen. Hi, I see you, please go away now.

I'm taking a moment to settle and reflect on ALL the places, times, and situations where I went against the grain. Where I forced things to work because I wanted them to, signs that this may not be the way, but damn it, I was going to make it work.

How many events, contracts, businesses, friendships, and relationships have I ever felt a pause, a hesitation at the onset? An overthinking brain trying to sort the details to make things make sense. If it makes sense, it will work, right?? Not always.

It is said in many places and ways that if you don't learn the lesson, you're bound to repeat it. I have had enough lessons 🤣💯 To quote a friend from yesterday, "You're a glutton for punishment." Ugh. No more. I can't be, I can't do this again, or any of these things. It's time for wise choices and an easier life. So, it's time to start learning quickly.

Lesson 4,752 You can't force things to be any other way than they are simply because you want them to be so. Things are what they are; people are who they are. See it for what it is, sort the feelings, and choose accordingly.